Day 12 - emotional eating

I’m headed in the right direction again!!

I had many battles to fight today with my eating plan.

First, it is PMS time, and it is that time that I want to eat lots of food – two things more specifically – sweets (cookies has been my “thing” this time), and fried foods (chicken gizzards, potato logs, etc).  Confession time – I pulled out my dark chocolate Hershey Kiss stash and had 5 of them.  Then I stashed it away, and I have to say that craving is gone now.  So, I should be good on that stage.  On the fried foods, I don’t have a “fix” for that without giving in, and that would be bad.  Therefore, I am just going to pray through it.

Secondly, I have had the WORST day I have had in an extremely long time today.  To start it off, somewhere in my sleepy blissfulness this morning, I shut off the alarm, and we didn't get up until 7:25!!  Only 10 minutes before we had to leave for school/work.  Last night, our doe rabbit Babs had her first litter of kittens (that’s what baby rabbits are called) this morning I go check on them, and all 8 are dead.  Then I get to school, and one of the girls is mad at me because I told her (through one of her friends) that she really needed to come to school so she could get all her tests made up and could pass.  Apparently she doesn't want me to care.  Well, if you know me, you know that I don’t handle people being upset with me very well.  It upsets me, my anxiety goes through the roof, it makes me sad, I want to fix it (even though I don’t know what is broken) and I focus on it so much it gives me a headache.  I am an emotional eater – so with my emotions so hard you can only imagine.  I wanted to throw everything out the window – go to the dollar store and get a coke and some chips, and maybe some cookies, then go to the Chinese place for lunch... and only God knows where it may have escalated to from there.  But instead, I prayed.  A LOT.  I was able to control my urges and voices in my mind (inside noise).  I went to my car.  And I ate my lunch and read my bible.

I refused to let my emotions dictate my food intake and I knew who to turn to for strength! 

He gave me VICTORY over my food battle as only He can!